Controlling the Future
I like to know what is going to happen a month, six months, or a year from now. Ideally, I'd have a plan for several years into the future. Therefore, it is interesting that I am not alone in this desire.
My short-term future seems to be planned, at least through the end of the year. My calendar and to-do list are up-to-date with teaching duties, research projects, freelance projects, and my creative writing. It will be a busy second half to 2012. But, at least I know what is supposed to be accomplished.
But, after December, things get all vague and blurry.
Because I don't know what is ahead, I get anxious. What will my job be a year from now? Will I be teaching and researching somewhere? Will I be working in private industry? Will I be writing and editing full-time? How will I be contributing to the household?
Some of my friends are able to relax and tolerate uncertainty, but I'd rather have a clear plan. It would be nice to be able to relax, just "go with the flow" and enjoy life, but I worry about the details.